all the things she does make it seems like love and its just a game .
and i like the way that we play!
this is where you and i meet.
siti khadijah is full of laughs and smiles. :DD
her life is now officially online and officially only YOU cn read it.
this is where we draw the line of you and me , together . :DDD

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i cnt think anymore...the first week of term 3 sucks...i dunnoe...i have too many in mind, from school to the outside to home...

firstly i should start with home because home seems to be where we feel safe but i feel insecure...
1. im drifting apart from my family, (except for my close sister,raudha)
2. my parents are too harsh on me..
3. the rules are too much...
4. i have been blamed for many things
5. i dun feel like at home but like im in jail..
6. i feel invisible...

im not really that invisible...its like yea, my parents care about me and i see that, seldom...i see more of like my parents care about my sisters more than me...
i feel they have almost given up on me...
recently i sprained my ankle...(and i still do..)
and my mum bought fer me an ankle guard and she massage my foot..
but my dad is like...sitting one corner having to smoke a cigar or just having fun with my little sister..i seem to lose my temper everytime to my little sisters...i didnt get enough sleep...wats wrong with me..maybe im dreaming...wait...everyday is like a dream...i cnt stand it...

and then there's the one that adding onto the family matters..
school...yes, school...
i feel like atiqah and munirah is drifting apart from me...someone is creating a barrier from me making friends with their friends...and they only talk to me when that person is not around...and they will act different when that person is not around me...but only tease me when that person is around...and yes that person is popular in and outside class, especially with the opposite sex...

and then there is the people that betrayed me, people that create the problem so that person would not befriend me anymore...i didnt know okays!!! stoopid f***ing shit to that N person...the N person is the ugliest and rude person that some people hate...she even pretend that the previous conversations with people that some of it is not true...which is like and endless f***ing to N person...and then another person befriended N person...betrayed me and befriended N person...they are so good together because they are the same...

and then there is the CCAs problem..stupid Soh...say that i wont take part in the freaking competition...FINE!!!
and thanks Mrs.Maesten fer putting me..wth?!?

I HATE THE LIFE THAT WAS DESTINED BY GOD!!!
WHY ME?!?!?
ARGGHH!!!
I WISHED TO LOCK MYSELF UP IN A PLACE AND NVR COME OUT...
NVR...