i feel
betrayed
frustrated
confused
crushed
lonely
demoralised
dissapointed
and other feeling still stirring in the cauldron inside me
betrayed because first thing . i founded out that
two of my so-called-friends totally hate me .
but im a little relieved that most of the peeps in class hate them too .
but defo dun like me too .
my close friend told on a sunny day back to her hse
all the things tht two talk about .
gossips on me .
but i know they gossip about my close friend too .
so we shared information .
we talked all day long as we go through the neighbourhood for childcare centres .
something that have to do with our project
i enjoyed time with her more than time with those two gerls .
we talked for two and a half hours .
im still disturbed by tht thought of them back stabbing behind me
after all the things i did for them
idiots !
i pissed off with their faces everyday .
lols .
hais hais .
this aint a perfect world .