sometimes ,
i wonder if it was true wat the newspaper says
if ure 15 are not a 'virgin' , ure not attractive .
lols .
it means by having a serious relationship with hugs and kisses .
by all means ,
truthfully speaking though ,
i dont even had one a serious relationship .
haha .
but i dont mind though .
not wanting to float into dreamland everytime in love
which totally distracts me in my studies .
and totally rots me .
i dont want to have to end up with little fights with parents
over loving someone and dragging all attention to him instead of family.
i dont want to make my life anymore difficult .
its as though im swearing to God on this ,
which i dont really really want to .
but i have to say out loud .
i couldnt bear it though .
if i had to look around with people having to be out in couples .
and that annoys me
and the people around me
whenever i think over my love life
which lies dull and gray in one corner of my brain .
sighs .
sometimes ,
i hate to think it over , over schoolwork .
it make me stop and think it over again and again
and that sense of lost love fills my heart again .
but i will never want to see my wants ,
or my needs
all i want to see is what i want to achieve soon .
then ,
i am able to see what it is im going to ,
even having to meet new guys over the net ,
im still lost .
but i know i cnt let this feeling overwhelmed me .
and end up , me having to be hurt badly .
so i need to be strong ,
through this silence
and look on the brighter side of the road ,
when i knw on my other side is the dull side .
luqman(!)
ili(!)
irah(!)
raudhaa(!)
lyana(!)
Adriana(!)