went to the hospital today .
fer appointment
gosh gosh!
i knw what i was expecting .
i knw how irresponsible i am for my health
i knw how the gulit bulids in me when i didnt take it
i was fumbling with my appointment card .
my mum sat beside me , waiting for my queue in the lab
to take my 3 month blood test .
my finger was pricked .
the lad assistant gave me a plaster to stop the bleeding
i walked out and signalled to my mum that it was done .
at kkh , we walked towards the kopitiam to have a pre lunch meal .
since i didnt ate in the morning , i was starving
ordered mee siam whereas mum ordered mee rebus .
went to the
clinic@lvl2 .
register and waited for my name to be called at clinic door .
nurse pei kwee was not on duty today
angela was left to do the job .
angela called upon me
and i dragged my feet towards the nurses' room for a small consultation
before the real consultation with dr. yap .
my hba1c was 13 !
crap !
i started to freak out .
again ,
it was high .
angela asked me questions
about my control over my illness .
then dr. yap came in
his face .
was a little scary ,
he was serious .
despite his smile , i cn tell his eyes were really worried .
i freaked .
he talked seriously to me .
saying that ,
i need to stop .
stop excuses .
and start doing things
the right way .
he gave me and article to read it
and tell me to reflect .
how i must take control
instead of letting it take control of me
i feel like tearing .
i told myself i must do something .
if i want to prevent long term complications
from happening to me
its time to reflect .
and learn from where im supposed to .
sighs ,
dont want to be disabled .
right ?
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