i know my blog is starting to sound very emo
like .
all my sorrows , sadness and grief is written onto tis blog
but watever it is ,
im always smiling on the outside
although ,
most of us maybe thinking,
' this gerl have too many problems or such,'
yes i do .
i'll admit
but this is my own diary or journal .
isnt it ?
so just a few hours ago .
im back from the harmonious ramadhan with my neighbourhood
it was quite boring
but i definetly needed the fresh air and wind
the night settles in after sunset .
nearby ,
there a playground in the dim light
i just sat there ,
thinking
as the fresh air blowing from the sea at east coast ,
blew my hair and face
all the things that is overcoming me
my studies
conflicts with my parents and sisters ,
love
the sudden departure of friends
the recent lack of tiredness
the common into-the-thinking-mind phase every once in awhile
and lastly
the constant loneliness and quietness developing in me
the night was nice to stay quiet , away from the crowd .
with the callings of the terawihs nearby under the block
and i sat ,
and think
and think
coming to a conclusion
everything can be resolved
except that
most of it take a longer time
some are controllable .
i shall resolved those which are easier to control then
but
wont other [rpblems emerged too ? , i thought this through
sometimes i see the need of being individualistic
but it gets too lonely most of the time
and
i dont like it
i've been losing my appetite
these things that hurt
is crumbling onto me
and i need to get out and be free
to feel lightness and happiness
to engulfed me once more
guess ,
i have to make sacrifices to see a better point of view .
its all i have , isnt it
till here then ,
tag me ya !
hahas!
((:
just keep smiling eventhough u feel like falling~!
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