i have been in and out of the internet nowadays . parents have been at home really early lately , room door locked by mum and so on and so forth . i am looking forward to dragon boating this weekend . on the 21st and 22nd of November is already dragonboating competition . what am i to say ? i have been skipping training now and then with school exams which finally is over and so forth .
results came out and it was trash . i thought that i would not be promoted to sec 4na but i am . alhamdulilah!!!gosh . i failed like 3 subjects and that includes maths , which i founded out is the most important subject of all in order to promote to sec5 in 2011 . i have to study now rather than wasting the precious time Allah have given me to pursue my dreams and make up for all my sins i've done in this world .
yes , all of the sudde , i have turn into somewhat religious or whatever . but i have been praying for Allah's help since the begining of this month , i think . poor memory . must have malfunctions in the brain . haha !!! anws . nothing much going on except that things are starting to clear up in school . although i dont talk to certain people that much because im not comfortable with them , new people whom i have not talk with this past 3 years of secondary school life have finally broken their shell and expose , bit by bit to me . im blessed that my prayers are slowly coming true . alhamdulilah again!!!!
despite all that , studies must be the first priority in mind and then comes to taking care of myself and my surrounding family and friends . what more support u might need in times of help but yes , it is important . trust is slowly buliding up and i must not let that trust bond among my friends and family break . as long as we all know , trust is bulid up through years but however broken in a second . that hows life is . in reality , there will always be someone charged for wrongdoings in court that might have killed one or a thousand at sight . nothing is good in life now . what we wants , is decided with our own doings , decisions , feelings and attitude . nothing in life have an easy price to pay right . as for me , im still getting us to the fact htat the shells are breaking and i am studying more harder now , now that im going to sacrifice my own holidays to studying . of course i;ll be going on holidays and stuff but its good enough right ?
so here i am , making decisions for my own good and my own future . i have no other option that to go to polytechnic . i couldnt possibly persuade my mum into having me in ITE . i dont find ITE bad , but its a good place to study and hang out . in other words . studying is a first priority and also . I NEED A TUTOR WHO IS WILLING TO TUTOR ME !!!!
haha .
till here then .
wish me luck all the way .
luqman(!)
ili(!)
irah(!)
raudhaa(!)
lyana(!)
Adriana(!)